Wow....

So,  IUI #2 failed. Not only did it fail, but it also caused a huge cyst on my left ovary, causing us to be benched for our next cycle. It was absolutely devastating to me hearing my RE say we were benched. It's going to be extremely difficult for us to do treatments the next 5 months because of busy season, so we were really hoping December would be *our* month.

To add insult to injury....My best friend texts me to tell me she is 9 weeks pregnant. At first, I was soooooo mad that she felt the best way to deliver that news to me was through a text message. I felt completely blindsided. I understand that she thought this was the best way to tell me, and even though I disagree, I understand where she was coming from and I can't be upset with her about that.

I still have so many emotions about this situation. I am so happy for her. I'm happy that she won't have to go through what Brian and I are going through - she was diagnosed with PCOS at a younger age and always thought she would struggle getting pregnant. But while I'm happy for her, I am so incredibly sad for us.


"Intense desire for something, coupled with the inability to fulfill that desire is life's most painful combination."

"It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want."